Jim Lochrie Mullen

Happy Birthday

Another birthday has come again ... can't believe how fast time is passing by!
It really isn't any easier, I just hope that you are in peace up there, and happily passing time with all the family - we all think of you often, and I often wonder if you hear my messages that i send - either verbally or in my mind?
That's now 9 we've "celebrated" without you, yet it seems like yesterday you were taken from us - how weird time is.
We all love you very much, talk about you often, and miss you every day - we make no secret of it, and we're happy that people know how special you were (are) to us, and how a big part of our life is missing.
8 of us got together last week at Annmaries (including James), along with your grandkids, and it was so nice to get together and have some fun - though you are especially remembered at times like that. Even the grandkids that never knew you well, or never met you, will join in the conversations cos they know what a big part of our lives you were, and we make sure they know as much about you as possible ... they know you are the brightest star in the sky!
I hope you like your new vase - you're getting suffocated in flowers, lol!
Granny and Granda (and Uncles Eddie + Cliffy) get some flowers each time I visit as welll now.
Please pass my love to all the family, we love and miss them too.
I love you with all my heart, Dad, and that void that you left can never be filled ... till we meet again .... Margaret xxxxx

Margaret (Daughter)

November 9, 2011

Happy Birthday

Dad, your birthday's here again ... and you're not!
People always say it gets better with time, and although that might be true on a general day-to-day basis when I'm busy at work, or in the house, or with the kids n stuff - on days like this (your days), it still hurts real bad!
I haven't been up to see you for a while, just due to circumstances, so it might seem like I forgot your birthday, but be assured that's not the case - that would never happen. I think about you every day, and would give anything to have you back .. to be able to say Happy Birthday to you instead of to (what sometimes feels like) an empty sky ... although I'll say it wherever I have to, just as long as I think you can hear me and know that I'm thinking of you. I really hope so much that you do x
We'll be in Paisley in 2 weeks, and I'll come visit you then... might even buy you a half! (well, a miniature probably!)
Granny comes to talk to me quite a lot .. I'd love to hear from you, or hear that you're ok.
Well, Happy 54th Birthday, Auld Yin ... all my love .. and I'll talk to you soon.
Love You xxx

Margaret (Daughter)

November 9, 2010

John (again)

Hi Dad,

Great news on the medical front about John - Not the big C!
We are all so relieved .. not to mention himself.
Been going to the wee spiritualist church in Morecambe with Rab for the last few weeks .. seems my Granny had been coming to speak to me .. though they haven't actually told me it's her yet, but from the messages I've been getting I assume it's her. Have been hoping that you'd come and speak to me, but I'm open-minded and happy to receive news from anyone.
First Old-Firm game of the season today .. Annmarie's gone round to Katie's to watch it with Big Rab, Josh has gone to David's, and I think James and Jenni will be at Anji's .. still one of the things that brings the family together (of sorts) ... still some feelings that everyone should "be together" for certain times of the year, but I think that's difficult with them all having families of their own at different ages ... maybe we expect too much.
Been thinking of maybe going to Scotland for Christmas this year, but nothing final yet .. I'll come to see you if we do.
Anyway, just wanted to share some of the news with you.
Love and miss you always, xxx

Margaret (Daughter)

October 24, 2010

John

Hi Dad,
John having a bit of a difficult time at the minute .. waiting on some medical news.
I know he's scared, although putting bit of a brave face on it for his sisters and mates .. please help him through this, and be with him when he needs you most.
Whatever the outcome, we'll all be there for him, and give him all the love and support he needs to get through it, but some additional guidance and love from the other side won't go wrong - I'm sure he'd appreciate it, especially as he has probably about 4-5 weeks to wait on any results .. that's got to be hard.
He has so turned into you as he's got older ... he has everything - looks, stance, attitude, voice .. only ginger hair! It can actually be a bit scary sometimes! (in a nice way of course).
Anyway, I'll obviously look out for him, and the rest of the family will too, but a little help from you would be good.
Love you, always xxxx

Margaret (Daughter)

September 20, 2010

Love You

Hi Dad,
Another birthday is here .. getting older ... and another you're not here to share.
I miss you all the time, and think of you always ... I just hope you're around me somewhere, and can maybe guide Rab and I at this time when things seem really tough .. maybe through us in some luck?
Laura is 30 tomorrow, and she's having party tomorrow night .. we're doing what we can to make it special .. hope she loves it!
Annmarie and Anji having birthdays next week .. hope you're with all of them, and know you'll be sending birthday love to us all.
I know I share a birthday with the day we laid Granda to rest ... hope he's with you, and you can pass on my love to him too... I really appreciate the time I got to spend getting to know him, after Granny died, and look back on it with fond memories ...
Love to you, and granda, granny and everyone else up there with you. Always xxxx

Margaret (Daughter)

September 10, 2010

XxX

Evening Da,,
Just heard Whitney Houston -I will always love you and got a wee rush of warm memories ..
love and miss you so much it hurts Dad..
.Really wish you were with me this week. Big 30 this week..
KNow you can't be here in person Dad but still got a big part of my heart and sometimes that just needs a wee hug....
Hope our at peace and in a much better place.
Aidan gettin big now.. Kidz are all amazin and you would be ever so proud of them all
One more thing..Please watch over Maggie just now.. She needs big hugs and I know if you were here you'd make sure she got them..
Love you loadzzz
xxxx

Laura (Daughter)

September 5, 2010

7 years gone

Dad, I can't believe that's 7 years gone already. It seems like only yesterday I got the news, yet it seemslike a lifetime ago since I hugged you.
It gets so hard sometimes to keep my happy, smiling face on infront of others - and some days I don't even want to try!
I know I talk to you often, and visit you when I can, but sometimes it's not enough ... I just want to see you, face-to-face, for real!
People have told me that time is a healer, and although I suppose it is true on a level - the actual heartache I don't think will ever leave me. But to be honest, I don't think i want it to, cos I sometimes get scared that I'll stop missing you - and I never want that!
I hope every day that you can see and hear me, and that you are aware of what is going on in our lives. All the other 'kids' are getting on ok, and grandkids are growing up really fast - you would be hiding under your covers if you were here now and could see the antics of them all!
John has turned into you! Still got red hair of course(or what's left of it), but everything about him now is double of you - the way he talks, the way he moves, everything - it actually scared me a bit when I realised it for the first time ... I had to look away for a minute.
I'm coming to visit you today, of course, and I'll probably tell you all of this over again, but I didn't want to wait.
Carrie's left her mum's house, and is now forging a wee life of her own - we stay in touch, and like the other kids, I talk to them when I can, and make sure they know I'm here for them whenever they need me.
Coming up to my 2nd wedding anniversary soon .. time goes past so fast ... and like you once told me, since I've found the right person every day of married life is a joy - I love being a 'Mrs' - although sometimes I do wish that I had kept your surname, but I know that I am linked to you in my heart, we don't need a name.
I'm starting to get a bit teary as I'm writing now, so I'm going to stop and take a breath, and I'll talk to you when I'm up later.
I love you always, and miss you every day.
My only hope is that you are now happy and healthy and able to do all those things that you had to give up when you were poorly - back to being my 'old' dad!
Love you Dad, Rest In Peace xxx

Margaret (Daughter)

August 6, 2010

cont.....

the Big Yin n Rab are struggling Dad - no news on jobs yet and I know it is getting them down PLEASE look after them and guide them always Dad; My 1 promise is that I WILL win the lottery 1 day and i promise you they will be comfortable for life.
Dad I love and miss you more than words can EVER say ao take my love and hold it close.
Love and misss you always
Catherine xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Catherine (Daughter)

January 25, 2010

Dad I haven't been here for ages but things are SO hard without you to lean on.
Xmas was like being back at yours with all MY weanz LOL - they really keep me going xx
NewYear; well as you probably know (cause u r watching us all ) the family is divided and I hate it - I stayed in with Robert and my kidz, everyone was scattered instead of us ALL BEING TOGETHER; Dad I hate the split it hurts me SOO much xx If you were here I know you would round every1 up and have words to keep us as a proper family... !
Well anyway I have enrolled the twins for school - OMG a huge milestone for them AND me ... gonna miss them so much - they drive me nuts but also keep me sane .... I know you understand. Robbie is doing fantastic, I have ma bhoy back at last xx Kerys is a witch but I know you would say that is her job LOL
Everyone else seems to be doing okay Dad .... BUT....

Catherine (Daughter)

January 25, 2010

Happy New Year

Hi Dad,

Well another year ended, and another Hogmanay without you here ... they just seem to get harder and harder to get through without you!
People always told me "it gets easier with time", but I've yet to feel that ...although I do now feel a sense of peace when I come to visit and chat to you. I think it's because I feel close to you when I'm there ... if only I could build a wee house on that wee plot!

The family never spend this time together in one house anymore, and I know you would go mad if you were here, as you wouldn't allow the divide - although I do feel that they should live their lives as they wish without me judging them. Annmarie went to Laura's, and David was there ... Katie stayed in with her lot ... Alison, Anji, James and Jenni shared it in anji's house ... and I was here, at home with Rab. I just hope this year brings us all some good fortune and happiness ... whatever we are all doing.

It may be a new year, but I hope you still look down on us all, and try to guide us where you see it necessary ... I hope we continue to make you proud of us all.

Again, Happy New Year, Dad ... give Granny and Granda and everyone else my best wishes too ... I often think of them all.

Love and miss you always Dad xxx

Margaret (Daughter)

January 1, 2010